why? Always why?... I don't understand. i basically just bitched you out for this and of course you do it again. I don't understand. Why am i not good enough. Why do i feel like i'm not good enough. You say i'm not second place. That i'm first place to this. But why cant you tell me. You tell me sometimes. I get optimistic and then no. Of course not. it can't stay for that long. You can't be amazing for that long. You always have to ruin it. You are constantly hurting me. I dont understand. Why don't you see that what you do hurts me? You dont understand. I want to make you see what you do. but if i turn it, it seems like you dont even care that i don't want to spend time with you. but then you get so clingy and then it bothers you. but im trying im putting forth 100% and i feel like you arent even putting that. I feel like you're barely putting in 60% I just want to cry. I'm tired of this. I don't know what i want to do. it never changes. I want you to change. Change something. I want you to see it through my eyes. I want you to feel the pain that i feel. and then you say things like this. and you apologize. but i want you to feel my pain. but you won't because you dont take it the way i do. my feelings get hurt so deeper than yours. you dont even realize